So...its been a while, sorry.

Life has not stopped for me. I have had a lot going on this year between school, work, and home. I have had some depression creep in on me and seeked help for it. I'm feeling better these days and have had blogging on my mind a lot lately. So today seemed to be the right day to jump back in. Last month was Brinley's 3rd angelversary. I raised money for Molly Bears for her birthday. I ended up raising just over $300 through Jamberry Nails sales and from personal donations on Rally. If you would like to make a donation you can click on the Rally link to donate. :-) I would be forever grateful.

I'm keeping this post short since I have school work I need to work on so I'm going to leave you with this crazy dream I had last night.

I had an old friend from high school that I ran into ask if she could get a tattoo of my dead baby. She wanted her to look all bruised up in the tattoo and have Hang Gang written under it. At first I thought she wanted to get the tattoo to remember Brinley but then she explained it was to represent this gang she had joined! I told her HELL no she couldn't use my baby's picture for that. Then she pulled out this picture and long post I had written saying that anyone could use her picture for tattoos after she was first stillborn. 

I mean, WTF was that about? I don't often dream about Brinley. Actually I don't think I've ever had a dream about her living. I'm really sad about that.

Family

Tonight our neighbor surprised us when they invited us over for cake and ice cream. They were celebrating Jim's 72nd birthday today. While sitting there with their family I couldn't help but think about how much I want to have a large family. Family are there for you no matter what comes your way. I want to have a lot of kids so they can have lots of grandkids for us. :) That would make me happy. Brinley was the first of many children I want to have. It is tragic to have this set back but it will not hold us back.

It also made me miss my grandparents. We are planning on visiting them this winter. I know their health is not what it used to be and I cherish every moment I get with them.

I love my family.