Monday, April 25, 2011

More love from above

Apparently I wasn't the only one that Brinley sent her love to yesterday. She visited my dad and mom too. After I posted about finding the dime at Walmart my mom posted this on my picture on Facebook.

Heather, I just sat out by Starbucks reading my Kindle for about an hour watching people going by on the Blvd. When I got ready to leave I thought Heather found a Brinley dime today, I want to find a Brinley dime too! I pulled up across t...he sidewalk to pull out on the Blvd. looked down and saw a dime two feet from my bike on the left side. I put down the kickstand and got off to get it, picked it up and said, "Thank You!" Went to get back on my bike and saw a dime two feet from my bike on the right side. I picked it up and said, "Thank you, thank you, thank you! I am so grateful for these little reminders that she is loved and in our thoughts always. I don't know how many people walked by those dimes as I sat their but I know it was a lot. Both were on the sidewalk in plain sight.

Later in the day more like 11:00 pm as I was getting ready for bed I missed a phone call from my dad. He then called the house phone which I also missed because I was in the bathroom. For one he never calls that late and two he never calls both phone numbers back to back so I figured it was important. As I tried to call him back on my cell phone it rang in my ear, he was calling me again. It was my dad and he sounded very excited and just had to call me immediatly. His story blows me away.

He said that he was pulling wallpaper off the walls to redo them and had a pair of keys hanging on the so he took them down to remove the wallpaper. As he removed the wallpaper he heard something hit the ground and looked down to see what it was. It was a DIME! He said the date on it was 1997, not that that has any kind of significance but how cool is that?

My dad was very happy and blown away by this event and it made me tear up hearing this. I love that my parents love my daughter just as much as I do. I feel very blessed to have such loving, caring, and supportive parents. I love them both so very much!!

One more visit from our daughter happened today. I guess since I was the one that found the dime yesterday Brinley thought her father should find his own dime. Mark told me he ran into someone who just had a baby so he mentioned that we were expecting again after losing Brinley last August. After he got done talking to them he turned around and there sat a dime on the counter! The date on that one was 1965! That dime is 46 years old and barely looked used.

So much love for everyone! Truly amazing!


Jenna Evans the fake

Although I was not this woman's friend I wanted to write a blog bringing attention to her and people like her. In the BLM community we try to come together and support one another because we know all to well the horrible life we lead. We try to give encouragement and a shoulder to cry on when needed. It has been brought to my attention that a woman going by the name of Jenna Evans on Facebook has stolen another woman's story and pictures acting as if it was her own child(ren) that died.

I know there are some pretty messed up people in this world and it scares me to think that there are people out there that would want to pretend to feel the hurt and pain that we have. I'm posting this blog to help bring awareness to those of you who may not be aware that this kind of thing goes on.

Please read Kristine's Story blog : Hoaxed and Tiffany's blog: Internet Dangers to learn more about this particular instance.

Stay safe out there!

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Easter love from above

I have been told by a few people that my baby is watching over me from heaven and sending me her love. I don't like being told what someone thinks my baby is doing from heaven. How do they know what my baby is doing anyway? I know they are just trying to make me feel better or something but it doesn't help me.

I was discussing this with my husband as we were driving to Walmart. He told me that Brinley does send us love from heaven with the dimes that we find. He then said they must give out a lot of dimes in heaven and Brinley must be forgetful like Ally because we find dimes a lot. He always knows how to make me laugh. <3

So after we parked I got out of the car and would you believe it there was a dime right next to the car. I couldn't do anything but laugh about it.

After how upset I was last night over not having Brinley here my mood has completly changed around due to that little dime. I always find them when I need them most. Feeling her love from heaven today.



Wow I just realized that Easter is tomorrow (technically today since it is past midnight now). I mean I knew it was coming but I didn't care really, just another day. As I was reading Facebook statuses I noticed another BLM posted something about missing her baby on Easter then it hit me, I don't have my baby. GOD I MISS HER SO!!!

It has been just over 8 months since she left us and the pain is still so raw. Am I crazy for being pregnant again? How can I go through this again?

So tonight I finally watched "Rabbit Hole" with my mom. I expected to be crying through the whole movie but I never shed a tear. Of course, I teared up from time to time but no crying. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. It has brought Brinley to the front of my mind now after I have pushed her back for a while.

Yet another stupid holiday without my child....