Summer time

It is that time of the year again. Her birthday is approaching quickly. Less than a month to go. Less than 20 days to go. To be exact 19 more days until my first born would have been 2 years old.

Although if she had lived she may have a different birthday than what she does but it is her day none the less. It has been months since I've written anything here. I have let myself get consumed with the life of a mother to a living baby lately. I often think that I need to come write but haven't made the time to do so.

I miss Brinley every.single.day. She is on my mind constantly. I often wonder how it would be raising her and her lil sister. I have taken to using cloth diapers with Ever and just recently bought an Angel Fluff for Brinley's Molly Bear. They are so cute. I can't wait to get Brinley's first and only cloth diaper.

With her birthday approaching I have no plans on how to celebrate yet. The only thing I can think of is getting her name tattooed like I have always wanted to do. Her day is on a Saturday so I think it would be perfect.

In the time away I have started a Face2Face group for other babyloss moms in the area. We have had 2 meetings with only 2 in attendance but interest from others. It is new and hopefully will grow. I've got some things in the works for helping it get bigger. I worry that I try to take on too much at once. I go back to school in September plus work so I'm not sure how much time I will have for the group but it is something I'm doing for Brinley and her memory.

Anyway I just wanted to post a quick update. I'm always close by... <3