Being sick doesn't help

So I'm getting sick. My neck is stiff, my throat hurts, and I have a headache. The lady that upset me the other day apologized today. You can read about what happened in my last post. I've cried 3 times today. I want to hold my baby again. I have an emptiness deep inside that will never be filled. Brinley is forever a missing piece of me. I just have no other words to express how I feel. I don't want to be this person.